Chocolate Dance Party

Sophie, girl in a party hat.

 

 

Sophie is 5 today.

 

 

She knows exactly what she wants for her fifth birthday: chocolate ice cream.

 

Plain chocolate ice cream, not the kind with candy or other stuff in it. Which is why I’m worried, because the only chocolate ice cream I could find in single-serving containers is the Ben & Jerry’s kind with chunks of fudge brownies in it. I hope she doesn’t notice, but there isn’t much chance of that.

 

Ray – my husband, Sophie’s father – is also a purist. He only likes plain chocolate ice cream. As far as I know, this is not something he and Sophie have ever discussed. It must be genetic. Personally, I like chunks. Our older daughter Annabelle, who will celebrate her seventh birthday in July, likes chunks – sometimes. For a while she liked only vanilla ice cream, then it was raspberry gelato, then she even tried (and liked) my frozen yogurt. She likes sprinkles. Ray does, too, but only chocolate jimmies.

 

We live in Arizona. It’s hot. It’s all about the frozen treat. In fact, I ate a Weight Watchers fudgsicle while waiting for my computer to load so I could write this.

 

I remember thinking 3 was a big deal, but really, it’s all about 5. And kindergarten. I’ve pretty much been thinking about kindergarten since Sophie was born.

 

That’s what you’re supposed to do when your kid has Down syndrome.

 

At least, I think it is. Sophie was the first person I’d ever met who had Down syndrome, and in the past five years, while I have encountered several people with it, she’s the only one I’ve gotten to know. I do keep swearing to myself that I’ll start volunteering at the ARC day program down the street.

 

But so far, the closest I’ve come is that I now secretly watch Megan and Paco, the baggers at our Safeway who have Down syndrome. I like to imagine that when she grows up, Sophie will be a little like Megan, with long silky light brown hair to the middle of her back and sweet chubby cheeks, although I do not want Sophie’s career choices to be limited to stuffing bananas and cans of Chef Boyardee into plastic sacks.

 

Sometimes I stare at Megan. I think she knows. One day I caught her eye and said, “Thank you very much, Megan! Have a great day!” and she looked at me like I was retarded and said, “You too,” with as much casual panache as any self-respecting teenager.

 

I don’t usually let myself imagine Sophie as a teenager. I’m all about kindergarten. That’s as far as I can get. The other night at dinner I burst into tears and as I snuffled into my sangria Ray (who first looked annoyed, then concerned, then annoyed again when I said, “I’m just so worried about kindergarten!”) said, “Well, I worry about what will happen when Sophie is 40 and she has to move in with Annabelle.”

 

That shut off the tears and shut me down. I’m not going there. I’ve got to make sure Sophie makes it through kindergarten (heck, her first day) alive. And I am worried about Annabelle, very worried, because Sophie will be moving in with her, in a way at least, into her world at the sweet little public elementary school down the street. The school’s diverse in terms of income. And there are a few Spanish speakers. But just one other kid with Down syndrome. Right now, Annabelle and her friends are thrilled that Sophie is coming to their school. We’ll see what happens.

 

Sophie and Annabelle, out for ice cream.

 

That’s not for months. We haven’t even closed this school year out. Today I’ll celebrate the next-to-the-last day of Sophie’s pre-school experience with single-serving Ben & Jerry’s ice cream (in assorted flavors, but no plain chocolate) and “Sophie’s Chocolate Dance Party,” the CD mix I made for her birthday.

 

You know, I’ve discovered the key to happiness. It’s not having a child with Down syndrome. It’s not even that complicated. I’m pissed, because I was contemplating writing a “This I Believe” essay for NPR about how I finally believe in happiness, but who knew “happiness” would become a freaking trend? Now it’s a whole genre in the bookstore.

 

So I’ll just tell you: The secret to happiness is a dance party in your kitchen. My whole life, I’ve lost myself in the movies, all kinds of movies, but mostly, I admit, cheesy chick flicks. The kind where – always – about a third of the way in – the main characters drink a little too much wine and wind up dancing around the kitchen. (If you have no idea what I’m talking about, see “Practical Magic,” a truly horrible Nicole Kidman/Sandra Bullock stinker with a super kitchen dance scene featuring the song “Coconut,” as in, “put the lime in the coconut and drink it all down”. I told you, bad.)

 

A while ago, bored on a weekend afternoon, I turned on the 70s music channel on the digital cable TV, and invited my girls to a dance party. We congaed around the dining room table, spun around the kitchen and always – because Sophie’s obsessed with butts – shook our booties. That’s my drug. Forget the wine, just give me an armload of either girl (or both at once) and some Boogie Wonderland, and I’m truly happy, at least in the moment. And that’s no small miracle.

 

I’ve always thought (even before I had kids) that we’ve got birthdays all wrong. Why celebrate the person who was born? What choice did he or she have? The parents deserve the gifts. Until this catches on, I’ll give myself presents on my kids’ birthdays. For Sophie’s 5th, I bought myself a little hand-colored print of a girl in a party hat on etsy.com, from an artist in Portland, Oregon whose work I first saw years ago at an arts fair in Scottsdale. (The artist’s name is Amanda Blake; her web site is http://www.amandablakeart.com or you can stick her name in the search engine on etsy.com and her stuff will pop up.)

 

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And — fighting myself every step of the way, since I’m as low-tech as they come, and I’ve never journaled, and, anyhow, “professional” (whatever that means) writers aren’t supposed to give it away for free — I signed up for this blog.

 

If you’re reading this, it means I got the first post up.

 

 

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11 responses to “Chocolate Dance Party

  1. Congrats on the post. My son’s three on on his way, just like Sophie . I’ll be checking you out as it goes.

    Beautiful.

  2. Cynthia

    so glad it’s up–

  3. I’ll try dancing in my kitchen tonight with my little boy and see if it works. Beautiful blog. Thank you.

  4. Niki

    I so enjoyed reading this. I hope you keep posting (and I hope the ice cream gods create a more single-servings of plain chocolate ice cream).

  5. SGJ

    awesomeness! thanks for sharing. 🙂

  6. Michele

    Yay! Congrats! Great blog and adorable photos of the girls. Chocolate ice cream and a little dancing around the kitchen sounds so fun!

  7. I can see why RAK put this under blogs they read. Beautiful. I loved it all the way from Sophie wanting you to get dressed instead of blog all the way to the kitchen dancing – which I do regularly. Especially since my husband bought me an under-counter tv/cd/radio. My kids are old enough to think I am nuts, but sometimes they join me. Don’t tell their friends.

  8. Heather B. W.

    Thank you, Amy, for sharing your girls with us! They are both true gifts!
    xo

  9. Ms. X

    Wow, what an amazing blog! I laughed, I cried,…..
    Thank you for sharing! I got all caught up on all the entries and I look forward to reading more!!

  10. karen

    Thank you for sending this to me. I have read them all and have laughed and cried. I look forward to reading many more! hugs – nice to hear you made it back from Denver. Glad you survived the flights 🙂

  11. gaga

    it’s the bedtime story I look forward to every night……..and I have visions of the Princesses dancing in my head.

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